If my jeans felt tight, it would even affect my mood. I was restricting and labeling foods I once enjoyed as “bad.”
I started making excuses and trying anything not to be social. This felt good at the moment but left me with guilt.
People started giving me compliments about my weight. This encouraged me, but I was hungry. I began to sneak food when no one was around.
Then my little habit of sneaking food turned into binge eating:
- I felt ashamed
- I felt unattractive
- I compared myself to others
- I began to hear that I looked unwell
It became a never-ending cycle. My lies hurt the ones I loved. I tried therapy, Overeater’s anonymous, diets, running a marathon, and doing it alone.
But nothing worked. Something needed to change.